Okay friends!.. I hope you are ready for this. I am SO EXCITED (and very nervous) to finally be sharing with you the story behind my personal fitness journey. I am calling it a fitness journey, because it has to do with fitness, but it’s really the journey of finding myself! With that being said, it’s going to be a long one and quite personal. This is by far the hardest post I have ever written; not because it’s long, but because it’s so vulnerable. I have never been this open on the blog before, and to be honest, I am terrified. It has taken me so long to even write this out, even after having the images for over a month, simply due to fear. But it’s time to quit living in fear, put my big girl pants on, and show you all the real me!
Have you ever woken up and realized that you weren’t as happy as you knew you should be? That was me a few months ago and for a while I couldn’t make sense of it. I am happily married to the man of my dreams, we have food on the table, a roof over our heads, and not to mention amazing family and friends. I spent years trying to figure out how a person could be so blessed but yet be unhappy. It wasn’t until recently that I realized that the truth of the matter was much more simple than I made it out to be. I wasn’t unhappy with my life, I was unhappy with myself.
I had always been active in both high school and college and was blessed with a metabolism that worked like fire up until I turned 25. (What is it about that age?) I had realized I’d gained weight but with my wedding approaching I took on the habits of a “crash diet” and lost it quickly. After the wedding, I guess you could say I “let myself go.” I ate what I wanted whenever I wanted despite feeling guilty and you know what’s crazy? My pant size stayed the same. So I kept living that lifestyle! How many of you can relate to allowing your clothes be the judge of your diet? I worked out sporadically trying every single workout facility in the city of Fort Worth..hah! Not even kidding! but could never stick with something consistently. It’s as if the idea of self care was too far beyond my reach or what’s worse..that I had told myself I didn’t deserve it. And it wasn’t until my recent deep epiphany that I decided that enough was enough. I did not like the woman I was becoming and the only person who could change that was myself. It was then that I realized that everything in my life was being affected by my negative self image. My relationships were rocky, my faith pushed to the side, and even the blog was struggling. I mean, come on, my blog is about “being who you are” and I had no idea who that was anymore! It was one of the lowest moments of my life and I made a promise to myself to never feel that way again.
That’s when I found Steve Bloomberg. A family friend of ours had posted some before and after pictures of herself on social media and I was completely blown away by her results. I immediately reached out to see if she would be willing to tell me her secret and thankfully she was! Thus began my fitness journey. My journey to find myself.
So what was I about to get myself into? I was so nervous to meet Steve. Was he going to be one of those trainers that yelled at you and made you feel worse about yourself? Would he think I am a lost cause? Was I going to have to workout for countless hours and eat rabbit food? haha! And much to my surprise (and relief) it was nothing like I was expecting. Steve was so kind and encouraging and I had never felt so supported or driven to go after what I wanted! He works behind the theory that real food, fruits, veggies, and lean protein, can heal not only the body but the mind too. And boy does it work. After one week… just one week I felt totally different! It is amazing how much your body will thank you by simply eating well, and resting. For two and a half months I worked with Steve to reach my first goal, which was to feel comfortable in a swimsuit. One of my best friends was getting married in Mexico and I was hell bent to be comfortable in my own skin before I went. So it was time to buckle down.
Steve gave me a meal plan that fit in perfectly with my lifestyle. I was eating all the time! haha! I’m talking 5-6 times a day! Now don’t get me wrong it was hard, but with the support from my husband, friends and family I was able to power through it. I also gave up alcohol during this time. Ya’ll I love my wine! haha! But to give it my all I had to give up all the wine! And as far as my workouts went…they didn’t! haha! I know crazy right?! Trust me this threw me off too. I just went on a 30-45 min walks everyday, and these walks were so amazing too! It was total me time. I loved getting outside to just enjoy life, breathe in the fresh air, and to free my mind of whatever it was tangled up in. With my meal plan, walking, and getting rest.… I lost over 20 pounds in two in half months and I have never felt better. Steve was right there every step of the way. We would meet once a week to talk about everything, from how my week was, to how I did on my meal plan, to what was stressing me out. He basically became my therapist! haha! He helped me to reach more than my just goal. He helped me to reach out to that idea of self care and embrace it head on.
Once wedding time came, I was off to Mexico with bikinis I was proud to wear in tow. And ya’ll I went all out. I ate waffles covered in peanut butter and syrup every morning! haha! Before I knew it I was living a lifestyle of balance. I choose to eat well because it nourishes my body and I feel so good when I do it but I also choose to eat tacos because life is too short to be taco-less. It’s so liberating to be free of guilt and to finally be enjoying life in full appreciation again.
Now let me just say, I am not a fitness model by any means, and nor do I want to be, but guess what? I am happy and comfortable in my own skin for the first time, EVER! I finally learned how to love myself and the body that God gave me. Finding peace in my food choices and in my body was a HUGE part of me finding myself. I am so much more happier now. I am free yet in control. I am strong. I know I will always be a work in progress and in no way am I perfect, but finding contentment with my imperfect life is perfect in itself. I can finally firmly stand behind what my favorite blogger says “Be Who You Are” lol! Just kidding!! But really, ya’ll, being yourself can be so difficult. I just want to encourage each one of you to make time for what makes you happy. No matter what your goal is, whether it be fitness related, career or personal, YOU CAN DO IT! Go after it! You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. There is only one of you in this world so BE YOU.
I love each and everyone of you! Thank you so much for all of your support. I wish I could hug all of you!